JTM BOOKLET

INTRODUCTION

The name of the booklet is Jewish transcendence meditations.

Each of the three parts of the title are significant;

Jewish

These meditations are meant to serve as a preparation to practice Judaism in a state of transcendent consciousness. Very simple put, the essence of Judaism is fusion. We constantly seek to fuse Hashem into our lives in every possible way. Therefore, in order to fuse properly, we need to transcend that which is not enabling us to achieve fusion.

We hope, with G-d’s help to be able to follow up these meditations with other teachings, tools and meditations that will allow us to apply directly the consciousness we seek in as many areas of Jewish practice as possible.

Transcendence

Perhaps the most significant distinction between Jewish mystical thought and Eastern mystical thought is that Jewish Mysticism teaches that life needs tikun. We need to constantly seek out that which is lacking and rectify it or elevate it. Transcendence by definition addresses itself to rectify and elevation that which is lacking. This is the common denominator of all of the meditations in this booklet.

Meditations

What distinguishes a meditation from a teaching technique or a life tool, is that a meditation seeks to transform consciousness. Instead of just intellectually absorbing a teaching, or practicing a teaching with a proper technique or tool, a meditation internalizes that teaching into the various aspects of the soul, such as our will, our emotions and even the Divine Providence that we awaken when the meditation goes deep enough.

ALL OF ME AND BEYOND [the master class]

            A WONDER-FILLED ORDER MANIFESTS

We are, with the help of Hashem, in the process, this winter and spring, of collecting over 20 different topics presented as meditations. Upon 1st glance, the only thing they all seem to share in common, is transcendence. However, upon 2nd glance, and with a lot of juggling, I was thrilled to discover that all of these meditations fit into a wonderful order or system----a system that can serve as a step by step guidebook leading us to overcome blocks, realize our own capacities fully and then reach beyond our capacities to fuse with the Divine.

       THE ORDER'S AUTONOMY AND ESSENCE

Though these meditations can be lined up to serve as a guidebook for reaching beyond ourselves, each individual meditation, for the most part, is a self contained and autonomous aspect of higher consciousness---of something that you would seek to do all of the time--24/7---the more you engage in it---the more blessing and depth you achieve---a window into the mystic.    Therefore, any one of these meditations could and should be used when the situation calls for it---irrespective of any type of order that they fit in to.

Nevertheless, an order does exist---an order that will serve very well as a TABLE OF CONTENTS that is broken down into three distinct components of a universal principle that we discovered called F.A.B.

enabling spiritual FLOW by overcoming blockage,

seeking ALL-ness or total self expression

and reaching BEYOND ourselves

we found that all of our meditations fit in nicely to these 3 categories in this order [F.A.B.] as a sort of an unveiling process...

FLOW ENABING MEDITATIONS

Enabling flow by overcoming existing blocks

1.All of Me and BeyondMeditations

2.First aid for the Broken-hearted Meditations

3.LowerSoul Meditations

Initiating Flow by stepping into the role of a

Spiritual warrior and a solutionizer

4. Spiritual Warrior Meditations
5. A Tools List'

Going beyond just enabling the flow, by

transforming that which is dark into light and

that which is lifeless into being filled with life

6. Channukah Meditations

7. Illuminatiion Meditations
8. Life-ing Meditations

ALL OF ME MEDITATIONS

                    Completely awakening, harmonizing and
                    expressing our own innate capacities

9. F.A.B. [All of me and Beyond] Meditations
10. Sefirotic Allignent Therapy     Meditations
11. P.L.U.G. I. N.                         Meditations
12. Soul Awakening                     Meditations
13. People-ing                               Meditations
14. Marriage Meditations [x 3]     Meditations
15. Kabbalistic Sexuality              Meditations


BEYOND MEDITATIONS

                         Fusing with Hashem in all aspects of
                         our psyche as well as in coping with all
                         all challenges

16. Letting Hashem In                 Meditations
17. Transcendence                       Meditations
18. Rosh Hashonah                       Meditations
19. Shabbat                                   Meditations
20. Puppet Show                           Meditations
21. Surprise/Delight                      Meditations
22. Conscious Community            Meditations
23. Divine Unification                  Meditations
24. Jewish Essence                     Meditations

25. Kabalistic Healing Meditations

*****here are 3 F.A.B. meditations---- my attempt to create
3 all-encompassing 'master meditations', comprising the main principles that we have dealt with in all of our meditations;

THE FLOW MEDITATION

Know----------------------Know that the neccessary 1st step needed to achieve transcendent consciousness, is to overcome that which is blocking your natural flow. These blocks manifest themseves in many ways---spiritually, emotionally and physically. The blocks can be presently existing disfunctionalities or parts of your personality--usually the parts that want to act out--but for various reasons, we repress these parts and they'take revenge' on us by sabotaging whatever we are trying to accomplish---or they leave us with a general feeling of frustration and dissatisfaction.          Beyond these internal blocks, we encounter external blocks----life's 'curve balls' --large and small---trials and tribulations that are sent our way at all times in all shapes and sizes.         Beyond these, there are also all-consuming blocks that manifest themselves as depression, darkness and lifelessness---robbing us of the will and energy to cope and LIVE!


Project------------------Project yourself becoming a full-time spiritual warrior and healer---constantly knocking down all the blocks and obstructions from within yourself and from without---enabling you to open up at all times, a flow----an unobstructed flow of wellbeing...........Project yourself overcoming all of your debilitating fears and your brokenness by accepting and embracing these darker parts of yourself and by allowing Hashem's healing light to heal you........Project yourself openning up the stuck parts of your lower soul----your darker desires and fears [those that when harnessed, will be for your benefit only, and not your harm----which is not the case with the 'yaitzer hara' -evil inclination].....Project yourself becoming a great solutionizer---masterfully casting away all problems and challenges that come your way, by drawing on a host of solutionizing tools--your own as well as other's.....Project yourself reaching such a high level of 'flow enabling', that you will be able to transform darkness into light and lifelessness into life



THE ALL OF ME MEDITATION


Know.......................Know that to the extent that you awaken and express your inner capacities---to that extent, you will live in a reality of wellbeing and inspiration.....Know that most people tap into only a very small percentage of their capacities.......Know that a large degree of inner dissatisfaction, as well as trials and tribulations that most people suffer through,is due to a lack of balance and harmony----an imbalance in your Sefirotic character traits and powers........Know that you can become more self realized and self expressed by integrating those realms that seem to be outside of yourself, but actually are inside of you--just waiting to be awakened such as-------your ability to identify inside of yourself, your spouse, and your subsequent ability to become a fully expressed spouse, your ability to find and harness the people of your life inside of yourself, your ability to tap into the roots of sexuality deep inside of yourself, your ability to identify and actualize the 'super-Jew' inside of yourself---the Sage, the 'tzaddik', the Chassidic Master, the mystic, the Torah scholar...etc..........Know that to the extent that you actualize the 'all-ness' inside of yourself, to that extent, you become a fitting conduit for integrating the Divine inside of you and beyond you


Project.............................Project yourself becoming fully awakened and self expressed in all ways..........See yourself being fully present and giving it all that you got in all that you do-----with all of your lower soul and higher soul, with all of your joy and inspiration, with all of your intelligence and emotion, always integrating all that you've accomplished in the past into your present in a splendid , unified and harmonious fashion........Project yourself feeling more alive and influential than ever before.....see yourself attracting all kinds of people to yourself--casual relationships as well as the most intimate ones---see these people inside of your being, enabling you to know them and to properly relate to them.....See the wisdom of the world opening up within and without you.....See yourself in your ongoing self actualization growth process, becoming a conduit for the Divine---the Divine within you and that which is beyond you


THE BEYOND MEDITATION


Know...............................Know that Hashem created the entire Universe in order to dwell inside of you [and me and all of us]......Know that this Divine indwelling is the key to all types transcendence and perfection......Know that you can fuse with Hashem by connecting your will with Hashem's Will----and this fused will is really the ultimate expression of your own will.....Know that to the extent that you are real with the reality of Hashem guiding you at all times in all ways, to that extent, He actually will.....Know that with Hashem's help, you have the ability to think spiritual thoughts that have never before come into your mind ----at all times.........Know that when you allow Hashem to lead the way, there is virtually nothing that you can't achieve and become--including being in a state of total calmness and peace of mind.....Know that with Hashem's help, you have the power to cause a major imopact on the Tikun or rectification of the entire world in ways that are beyond your wildest imagination....


Project.............................Project yourself connecting intimately with Hashem ......See the incredible fruits of this intimacy ....See yourself feeling constantly joyful, inspired and enpowered.....See this Divine intimacy enable you to think Divine thoughts and to want Divine Wantings.......Project yourself being Divinely aided to coming closer and closer to your personal tikun and mission in life.........See this Divine intimacy as being the key factor in enabling you to fearlessly seek and recieve all that you need for yourself in life as well as all that you need to perpetuate more and more of this Divine intimacy......See this Divine intimacy as being the key factor in enabling you to personally impact the Tikun of the entire world in unbelieveable ways



with blessings from all of me to all of you
yitzchak

FIRST AID FOR THE
               BROKEN HEARTED
                     meditations

1. Over the course of the last 2 weeks, I've brought meditations designed to guide people in the realm of marriage. Upon reflection, I noticed that all of them partake of a somewhat IDEALISTIC state of affairs. What is missing, is the REALISTIC side of the story. From personal experience, as well as from the reports that I hear from so many people, I know that there's a great suffering experienced around the topic of marriage nowadays and all the satellite topics that are related, such as divorce and the singles and matchmaking phenomenon

2. So I listen to my inner voice, and I reach out to those suffering often in silent, but unbearable pain. These meditations are in no way meant to be a thorough guide to complete healing or Tikun---rather, only the beginning---only the initial awareness and presence of mind---an awareness meant to foster compassion for your own suffering , as well as others'----and I hope and believe that this awareness is a first necessary step towards true and complete healing

3. The awareness we will try to open up in these meditations aren't exclusive to marriage related problems----and the initial healings aren't exclusive to one specific area. So, be flexible and adaptive to draw from these to where they're needed---whether it be acute unbearable problems, or chronic ones that can plague us for years

4. The style that we'll use in these meditations is to first be present with as much of the pain and trouble that we are presently experiencing. Also, we will try to experience the 'POINT' within the overall problem that hurts the most---the POINT that encompasses all the other points.   Just as they say a good question is half the solution, so too by healing, presence with the problem and the pain is at least half of the healing


FIRST AID FOR THE BROKEN HEARTED meditations

1. be present----------------be present with the abuse that you suffer in all of it's detail. As painful as it is, don't hold back. Go through a typical episode of abuse and notice the various levels of pain that you feel. Focus in on the specific experience[s] that hurt more than all others. Keep checking inside until it's very clear to you what bothers you the most about the abuser and the abuse. If you can, ask yourself why this particular aspect bothers you the most.

allow the healing------------------allow the healing to begin...........know and intend that the very act of allowing yourself to experience the pain, is the beginning of healing..........know that the spiritual work that you are doing to focus in on the central point of the pain, is of incredible benefit to you and will allow you to completely heal that much faster and more effectively...........know that although the abusive person may certainly be almost incognito in the eyes of almost all onlookers, Hashem sees everything...........know that it's often the case that abuse victims are made to feel that they are lesser human beings, and as a result, they seek out often in quiet desperation, a way to compensate their sense of degradation, by demanding love and acceptance in one way or another-------therefore, if these phenomena ring true for you, know that they are your own natural and instinctual way of healing......embrace yourself, as you would a young helpless person in need......accept yourself and all of your feelings and behaviors just as you are, with no guilt expectations...etc           know that Hashem loves you just as you are and is closer to you and to all those who are oppressed like yourself, even more so than He is to non-oppressed people..............know that although it's very hard to understand, nevertheless what you are going through is ultimately the best thing for you......in the same way that you would want to help someone who came to you for help in these circumstances, seek out help for yourself....

2. BROKEN AND IN DESPAIR

be present-------------------be present with the despair that you are feeling...........the despair of ever being able to pull yourself out of your desparate situation. Don't hold back---feel the despair in all of it's detail.....see how totally absorbed you have become in your situation.........know that your darkness and your all-consuming absorption and your despair, are your instinctual [often subconscious] way of trying to protect yourself----so don't fight the despair at this stage---just be aware of it---focus in as best as you can, on the one point or factor that's causing you to be so sunk in the despair...........keep focusing until it becomes as clear as possible that this is the central point, more than all others............if you can, ask yourself why this particular aspect bothers you the most.

allow the healing---------------------allow the healing to set in............know and intend that the very act of allowing yourself to experience in an unhindered way, your despair and it's focal point, is the beginning of the healing process............accept yourself and your present mind state just as you are...........allow yourself to be free of any pressure to immediately change or transform..........Know that in your present state, Hashem is so very close to you, and is already setting into motion, processes of infinite providential compassion just for you------though you might not see these processes, just allow yourself to accept that they are happening............be aware that where you are at right now, is where you are meant to be, and any and every prayer, feeling of bitachon [trust in Hashem] or action that you take to begin pulling yourself out of the darkness that you are in has infinite value---no matter how small or insignificant your thought, feeling, prayer or act may be----this is because the most miniscule bit of light can banish the thickest darkness..........know that most of the time, the deeper the darkness, the more profound is the entrapped light available to you.............be aware that inside of any and every type of darkness, Hashem hides in that place-----and to the extent that you can reveal Him, to that extent the darkness melts away.............be aware that you and countless others like yourself, have been in similar types of darkness before, and have been redeemed from it countless times......'Throw your burden to Hashem and He will take care of you'


***************by no means have we treated this subject in an exhaustive fashion.......... there is so much more to be done in this area----but on the other hand we couldn't totally ignore it......most people aren't normally in the midst of such absolute states of darkness......rather most are found in some type of grey area----the guiding principles that we brought, can be applied to any type of suffering, even the grey shaded ones......

may all suffering be wiped off the face of the earth....
yitzchak

LOWER SOUL MEDITATIONS

...first, some neccessary introductory thoughts....

1.We stand now at an interesting crossroads. We completed the meditations dealing with sexuality [at least one or two different types of angles].

2. We're motivated to go in one of a number of directions...perhaps it's time to do 'awaken our souls' meditations, and then again maybe it's time to meditate on the secrets of marriage; how to make it happen and how to keep it happening! I don't know which way to go-----but I'll keep my ears open and when I get the word, I'll be sure to let you know.

3. Meanwhile, I'd like to share with you some meditations of the lower soul. [That'll probably be a nice transition from sexuality to either marriage or Soul awakening].  The lower soul is perhaps one of the most misunderstood topics. Not necessarily what it is [I've provided you with a few animated, illustrative hints about that at the top of the page]. Rather, what needs understanding, is how to integrate this vital side of ourselves into our lives... What's this whole realm of lower soul all about? What is it and what is it not?

4. WHAT THE LOWER SOUL IS

a. It is a part of our psyche\soul usually associated with the animal soul [the Nefesh Bhaimi]

b. a possible one word description is 'desire'

c. It's a part of ourselves that is oftentimes neglected. Therefore in order to make it's presence known, it will often try to sabotage us and block us up. unless we somehow embrace, partnerize or integrate with it

d. It is the key to a big part of;

1. our life force

2. our sex drive

3. our inspiration

4. our fully expressed motivation

5. our ability to bridge the

lowest levels of life with the highest

6. our ability to bring things to closure

7. our ability to attract and bond with people that would otherwise probably be lost to us

8. our ability to live life and Judaism with the totality of ourselves

5. WHAT THE LOWER SOUL IS NOT

a. It is not our WILL which is represented by the Sefira Keter...ie...the part of the psyche that is a connecting point between our will and Hashem's Will, and the part of our psyche that serves as our main internal motivator

b. it is not our YAITZER HARA [our evil inclination] ----ie...the inner [and outer] drive to go against Hashem's Will. Nevertheless, because of it's similarity to the yaizer hara, oftentimes it is confused for the yaitzer Hara, and the same evasive strategies are used against it as well, such as squashing it, blinding it and elevating it. Our approach, for many reasons that we will bring here, is to embrace and integrate it in the right ways

6. At this point, I'll let the meditations speak for themselves.........so close your eyes and listen to my words, and have some FUN,
and see all that that you need to do as being already DONE,
and let the healing flow
assist your life to become ONE

and I'll take you there friends.....

LOWER SOUL MEDITATIONS

FUN

EMBRACE

scan the fun sides of your life...... on a scale of 1-10, how much of a fun person are you? Now yearn for and embrace those fun sides of your personality [and the ability to raise their levels from low numbers to 9's and 10's]....

see them as being people;

adventurous Andy [or Annie]

inspired Ilan or liana

creative Cory

beautiful bodied bubba

sexy Sadie

groovin' Gershon

...etc...and all the other fun parts of yourself that you can come up with....take time to see and embrace these arts of yourself

INTEGRATE

now line up adventurous Annie and all of her friends, and cordially introduce them to Hashem....ask Hashem to properly integrate them all into your life for you

project how your future will be blossoming with fun....with each of these characters....and groove on how these aspects are adding so much to your life;

wholeness

zest for living

creativity

a great social life

and so many other things as well

see how all of these new areas are integrated in a G-dly, wholistic, constructive and safe way!

DONE

EMBRACE

Scan the areas of your life that make you feel burdened in a negative way;

Find the worries and feelings of control that you feel that you must hold onto in order to fulfill your responsibilities [or so you think]

Find also the extra efforts that you think you need to worry about making

Find the need that you feel to worry about receiving the proper approval and respect from others

Now take all of these worries and toss them up to Hashem to take care of for you [not that you are giving up dealing with them at the right time, place and manner, it's just that you're trusting Hashem to remind and guide you to take care of these things in the best way]. Embrace the feeling of being

DONE with, and freed up from all of these worries

INTEGRATE

now ask Hashem to properly alert you to take care of all of the underlying causes of your worries[control, effort and approval] properly and positively. Be receptive and aware when you receive a positive healthy flash of insight instructing you how to take care of your responsibilities and needs at the proper time, place and manner.

Now project how you will daily grow into becoming a person who is liberated from destructive worries, and instead you find yourself positively and proactively taking care of your needs in a worry-free, control-need-free, approval-need-free

way

ONE

EMBRACE

identify all the parts or characters inside of yourself and your life, who are blocking you from being a healthy, holy, loving and flowing human being. ....

here too, assign them names; fearful Frieda

sabotaging Sonya

dysfunctional Danny

spoiled Sam

spacy Spencer

can't close on anything Clyde

and any other dark sides of yourself that are holding back your ability to be ONE, to be unified, to be in constant flow.

now visualize all of these parts sitting around you in a semi-circle.....go up and embrace each one of them, and thank them for a gift that each one has given you----such as protecting you in some way.....find each one's gift in your life and thank them

INTEGRATE

Now, with all of these characters lined up, ask Hashem to integrate each one in your life in a positive, holy, healthy way......

Gaze into your unfolding future and watch how you are becoming more and more healed and alive and at peace and ONE in every sense of the word

See how all of these characters are playing a very special and beneficial roles in your life....be thankful and grateful

Wishing you only good

Yitzchak

BECOMING A SPIRITUAL WARRIOR

1. SOUL MEDITATIONS
Last time we brought some teachings and meditations about awakening the soul-----overcoming the deafness that so many have in hearing the voice of our soul speaking to us in so many manifestations. We barely touched the surface and we hope to do more and more in good time. For now, we will bring towards the end of this week's teachings, a few new meditations....not mine this time for a [refreshing] change, but those of a very dear friend of mine-- a truly 'Awakened Soul'--- as you will see for yourself.

2. HEARING A DIFFERENT TYPE OF VOICE
Within the context of our overall goal of creating a Guidebook of Transcendent Consciousness, I think it is important that we focus on hearing another type of voice---albeit--the voice of the soul---but a different type of soul voice---one that's loud and clear and often frightening----oftentimes so loud and frightening, that we are frozen in our ability to react---the voice of our lives---of our mortality--beckoning us to live [in every sense of the word] and not to die----a voice calling us to stand up and become a spiritual warrior!

3.A SPIRITUAL WARRIOR
Life can often be so scary---the circumstances of scary reality, often give us no choice but to become warriors of some sort in order to survive. Hollywood's movies and TV shows are filled with it---warriors of the battlefields, of the street corners and even white-collared warriors--are today's heroes that many try to emulate in real life. And of course, there are the real soldiers of the battlefields of the world---forced into applying the best of their military skills, or G-d forbid, risk being wounded or killed in the process.    Our Sages, in their Halachic teachings, point out that a warrior's success and survival depend upon being totally focused and fearless and G-d connected----but even beyond the guidelines needed on the battlefield, our Sages teach,
it takes greater abilities to be a spiritual warrior on the battlefields of life----in overcoming and transcending life's 'curveballs being thrown at us from within and from without.

4. WHAT ARE SOME OF THE LESSONS INVOLVED?
So what are some of the teachings and meditations that would be fitting to bring in order to enlighten those who want and need to be spiritual warriors? Well...as we often encounter in the topics we cover, here too, the possibilities are endless. But time limitations and attention span limitations don't allow us to bring endless possibilities. But we do move onwards through the storm nevertheless with the following;

a. TURNAROUNDS---------Perhaps the most crucial challenge that a spiritual warrior must face, is survival in life and death situations. Therefore we will first dwell upon the true stories and lessons that come from real-life people who have transformed and turned around their lives-----a turnaround from being sunk in a deathlike state of despair due to the horrible situations that they found themselves thrown into in life---into shining above and beyond their peers, in the very areas of life that were tested by.

b. TRANSCENDENCE 24\7-------[ most likely we will deal with this one next week.... I hope...]
What a true spiritual warrior needs to do, beyond just effecting a once in a life-time do or die breakthrough or self transformation, is to become a warrior of transcendence 24\7 in each and every situation that life throws at them. This 2nd principle, I believe, is more challenging and certainly more extensive. It's all about being on top of it all the time.....and it demands crystal clear faith----- to the extent that you believe that there is nothing in the world that you can't overcome [with the constant help of THE ONE ABOVE of course], to that extent, your life will be filled with teachings, tools, recipes and meditations for each and every challenge that you will encounter.........for every challenge, there IS a solution my friends! The solutionizing spiritual warrior therefore will need to possess, in addition to a lightning fast intuitive response to all problems, also will need a large data base of tools available immediately for any and every situation -----A MODERN GUNSLINGER---THE FASTEST GUN IN THE WEST

[amazingly enough, our Sages teach something very similar regarding a true Torah Scholar ---they must possess the ability to give instant answers to all questions---and it's based on the verse in Psalms, 'Chagor chorbecha al yerech, gibor hodcha v'hadarecha' ---'Wear {draw} your sword on your hip, you glorious and beautiful warrior'---- ch.45\vrs. 4].

We need tools and tools and more tools--from the past present and future.......

meanwhile stay strong and courageous
yitzchak

*******here's the 'Turnarounds', followed by my friends's Soul Awakening Meditations...stay tuned for the tools collection and more ASAP;


TURNAROUNDS

******* We live in very hard times.... just scratch the surface and find out what goes on behind closed doors of peoples lives and the suffering they endure and you start to think that we're a generation that's all about suffering horrible personal fates

********but when you dig a little deeper you'll discover that so so many of these victims become masters of TURNAROUND---- overcoming and transcending darkness in the most spectacular ways..............

*********we're all 'spiritual warriors' in one way or another............. here are some of the 49 people that i know, that i have recalled so far [to protect their anonymity I used fictitious initials] , that have turned their life around from being a victim of life's tragedies---- to rising head and shoulders above anyone else in their special 'thing[s]';

1. M turned------
10-15 years of constant disappointment and failure[homeless, directionless, failed relationships, penniless...etc]

--------into becoming one of the nicest, funniest, humblest people around

2. B turned------
a diagnosis of invasive breast cancer [mastectomy already done] and about 5 other major health problems at a very early age and diagnosed with a limited lifespan

--------into becoming an extraordinary beacon of easygoing, life-loving, super-creativity expressing, people--loving, G-d connecting
bundle of joy!

3. Y turned--------
a life of suffering of a divorce, very sickly family including deep emotional problems demanding her full time attention

--------into becoming an extraordinary professor and lover of wisdom together with wonderful low-key wonderful loving character traits

4. R turned--------
a terribly disappointing tortuous failed marriage

--------into becoming a creative writer expressing his deepest emotions in a way I’ve never encountered before in anyone

5. Z turned--------
a lifelong tortuous, abusive suffocating failed marriage

-------into opening up in herself extraordinary spiritual powers and abilities that rival anyone i know

6. D turned--------
a lifetime of being treated with  psychiatric illnesses and finding himself in and out of institutions of various levels of 'closedness'

-------into becoming one of  the most polite and grateful true seeker of wisdom and healing I’ve ever encountered

7. P turned--------
his fate of being an autistic person with all the limitations involved

--------into becoming one of the most creative and talented and successful up and coming artists in the art world today

8. R turned-------
a long and particularly tortuous period of watching his wife fall victim to Cancer and pass away from it eventually at a very young age

----------into becoming the # 1 master of interpersonal skills that i know, including the warmth, loving and smiling and caring for others that he does better than anyone

9. G turned-----------
a nightmarish long history of being sexually abused as a child and young lady

--------into becoming one of the most dynamic up and coming advocates for the rights and the compassion and healing for today's victims of sexual abuse

10. U turned--------
a deep period of depression that found her gaining an incredible amount of weight and totally in a dark despair, barely ever getting out of bed

--------into becoming one of the most brilliant experts on all the alternative healing methodologies that exist in our time

11. T turned--------
turned a childhood filled with deviant behavior, so much so, that his parents was left with no choice but to send him away to a faraway 'special' school

-------into becoming one of the most brilliant and righteous and truthful Torah luminaries of our generation

12 O turned----------
being a victim of a very abusive 25-30 yr. marriage and suffering through child after child of his--falling off the path---that he worked so hard to lead them in------

-------into becoming one of the humblest, most caring, giving people i know ----yet at the same time serving as a very brilliant and courageous and innovative community leaders that i know

a few SOUL AWAKENING meditations sent to me by a dear anachronistic soul brother;

1. HASHEM'S LOVE

The Father of Compassion is the source of all compassion and love in the universe--------- begin to meditate on this unconditional love, of Av Rachman, regardless of who you are, what you have done, what you haven't done, bathe in the truth that you are completely totally wholely loved by a perfect loving father, begin to feel that love saturate your soul, heart, body and self, if there is resistance, forgive yourself for choosing pain instead of unconditional love, surrender your pain, your hurt, your issues, your belief systems, anything and everything, that stops you from being an open surrendered vessel to limitless love, continue this meditation each time feeling more and more love till you no longer can stand in His Presence but find yourself face down on the ground soul overwhelmed by divine love, that you feel perfectly held in that lap of your daddy perfectly loved perfectly surrendered. Getting yourself permission to weep with abandon, to have such deep overwhelming sensation that your whole body will shake with these love quakes

2. LOVE OF THE LETTERS

Meditation on the love letters, once you understand at a experiential level the incredible love that is always available to you if you but surrender to it. Receive the fact that there are 22 Hebrew letters, that formed the world these letters were perfectly arranged and ordered by this loving Creator in a series of love letters called the Torah. That this Torah on the surface has a wonderful story about man's interaction with the Name, but with each layer behind this story there are deeper and deeper truth, life, unspeakable joy, transcendent bliss, and to all the codes of consciousness one needs to ascends into the highest realms of Paradise, and download into the lowest realms of existence. The codes of light, love, and transformation are there in the letters and the spaces between the letters that give the exact ratio for how consciousness can be accessed. Meditate on what the Torah truly is, till every letter becomes precious to you and you desire to unlock their secrets, continue to practice this meditation until there is a deep the yearning to unlock the letters into a living fire of transcendent expression. Begin to cultivate a love relationship with these letters. As they begin to unflower you can hold them closer by embracing the commands that create a container for their light to linger. Eventually you'll have a small garden that will be your daily source of delight, and in that garden, more letters will unveil their beauty and tickle you with their delightful wisdom.

3. AWE AND FEAR OF THE NAME

The attributes of the Name, began to meditate on the different attributes of the limitless Name, His all-knowing, His Omni presence, His Holiness, His timeless presence, His limitless power, meditating on each attribute beyond the ability for the mind to conceive stretching beyond rational domains, beyond the emotional feelings, into the deep unknowingness that renders the soul silent in a perfect dread a perfect fear, for in this clean pure fear the stilled emotions, humbled and silent mind, and surrendered will, can be seen only as outward tools, to the true self this awareness that is able to hold the awesomeness and grandness in pure worship. Until the tools of the soul mind, emotions and will are rendered silent by the greatness of the Name. We must shatter all images however sublime to we are blinded by limitless light beyond all form and all images all concepts are reality. True wisdom will always be hidden from the lower soul, one must expand beyond that container. As we stay continually humbled by the ever expanding unknowingness of the Name, that humility keeps our soul questing for more unknowingness, if we are not expanding we are contracting, and limiting the limitless. Continue meditation until you daily sense this beautiful awe this overwhelming dread at total transcendence, for in the place of silent unknowing where even the questions are silenced because HE is all answer, there is pure worship and transcendent dreadfulness, that puts everything in perspective. when this meditation is so powerful that even your breathing becomes silenced and your body is in absolute stillness, and you sense a terrifying but purifying dead you have found the fear of the Name.

PARSHA TOOLS------

THE TABLE OF CONTENTS

*********THE BEGINNING OF A DATA BASE OF ALL TOPICAL ESSAYS AND TEACHINGS OF THE LAST FEW YEARS

Braishit Soul Resonating

When a person is engaging in the unknown (or even if it’s something that they do know about), they can ask the neshama (soul) to resonate and get hidden answers.

Noach Seeing Negative People Positively

Hyper-focus on a negative person’s good traits and, thereby, transform and elevate them in your eyes and in their eyes.

Lech Lecha Holy Selfishness Fusion

Empower your selfless acts of doing benevolence to others by plugging into your strongest traits. Also, plug into the awareness that Hashem (G-d) is enabling you to do it all down to the last detail.

Dayeira Grooving on Giving

Contemplate the power of giving and project into the upcoming day of how much you will groove on your giving. It will help to recall a top selfless giver that you know in your life in order to draw strength from the way they give.

Chayei Sarah Capitalizing On All Changes To Elevate Reality

Constantly ask yourself if every act and word and thought is connecting you with Hashem.

Toldot Bar and Bat Mitzvaing At All Ages

“Bar Mitzvah-ize” any desired daily activity by reframing it as a mitzvah.

Dayeitze My Personal Divine Coach

Answer your questions and dilemmas by listing the highlights of your week and then analyzing them as being G-d’s answers.

Vayishlach Yaakov Consciousness

A few tools enabling us to transcend while in a constricted state of mind.

Vayeisheiz All-encompassing Communication

Assess and adjust the quality of maximal utilization of your talents and your creativity and all the rest of the powers of your psyche when you express yourself.

Mikeitz/Chanukah Seeing In The Dark

Seeing that which is hidden in our own future by creating a “presume.”

Vayigash The Screams of Birth

Give birth to your inner soul’s powers by screaming away those dead-end areas of your life.

Vayechi Coping With Personal Exile

Mikze. While in real or imaginary purifying water, recall the painful experiences of your life and see them as being the best possible things for you.

Shmot Primal Scream Therapy

Work your way up to a screaming emotional crescendo when realizing you can’t take it any more and then throw your burdens to Hashem.

Vaeria The Ten Plagues Emuna Zap

When emuna is blocked in your thoughts and in your heart and in your lower soul, then yearn to break through in all areas.

Bo The Formula For Personal Redemption

A 3-step redemption formula.

(a) Primal wordless screams

(b) A humble acknowledging that it’s all from Hashem

Beshalach Impossible ______

When I am in an impossible situation, where screaming and praying isn’t good enough, then leap beyond your own capacities.

Yitro The Power of Receiving Torah

Ways that the Torah aligns with us.

(a) 613 Mitzvot/organs

(b) Five levels of soul learning

(d) Receiving above major Torah

(e) Learning with clarity.

Tetzave Chor The Amalej Principle

A few strategies of consciousness to battle the Amalej forces.

(a) Timing awareness.

(b) Clarity and confidence with your mission.

(d) Be an offensive spiritual warrior.

Ki Tisa/Purim _________ _____________

(a) Reveal the unpretentious you while mildly drunk.

(b) Scream, “All I want is Hashem” while you are plastered.

Vayakhel/Pikudei The Everyone In Me

List the unique talents and gifts of those you know and invest effort in identifying and internalizing these same talents in yourself.

Vayikra Kordanot

Contemplating the inner reasons of the Kordanot.

(a) The animal place.

(b) It’s the pre-spirituality.

(d) Atonement, how it’s affected.

Tzav Kordanot, Part 2

An expanded awareness tool for seeing the cosmic impact of any mundane activity.

Pesach The “Getting Yourself Free” Formula

(a) Being aware of one’s own personal Egyptian slavery.

(b) Working yourself up to groaning and screaming and helplessly turning to Hashem for help.

Shemini Holy Eating

(a) What you eat. Grade the level of your eating and commit to minimally upgrading your level of Kosher eating.

(b) How you eat. Dig deeply into yourself until you discover your primal motivation for eating and try to accomplish it.

Tazriah/Metzorah More Than Skin Deep

Using “Chochma healing” to cope with a possible modern-day equivalent of the causes of leprosy.

(a) Identify areas of your psyche that are numb.

(b) Open up the numbness with various chochma expansion techniques.

Acharei Mot/Kdoshim Holy Interpersonalizing

Locate and engage inside of yourself those special holy points that correspond to (and are discovered by) those same points found in your acquaintances.

Emor/Lag Daomer Light Into the Darkness

Darkness busting technique. Visualize all your darkness and negativities as a big wax ball and bust all the darkness with various laser beams of divine light until there’s left only light.

Behar/Bechukotai Transcendent Torah Power (Part 1)

Stay tuned for the tools of the next two weeks.

Bamid Bar Transcendent Torah Power (Part 2)

Self actualizing Torah learning tools.

(a) Composing your “take.”

(b) Be a warrior for clarity.

Shaduot Transcendent Torah Power (Part 3)

“Tikun” learning approaches.

(a) Tikun of the world approach.

(b) Bringing order into chaos approach.

(d) Tikun of the individual approach.

(e) Torah learning 24/7 approach.

Naso Adultery and Revenge of the Crying Waters

Tools for activating our internal sensitivity to be checked and castigate for invaders.

(a) Divine consciousness raising tools.

(1) Yearning for that.

(2) Core motivation.

(3) Light yourself up.

(b) Foreign invader detecting and castigating tool.

Dhaa Lot Cha The Grave of Lust

A formula for negatively impacting our harmful lower soul trait, so much so that it chooses to metamorphize.

Besha Lach About Nature Living

The “About Nature Living” Formula.

(a) Identify our “mission impossible” challenge.

(b) Project a perfect solution.

(d) Become Hashem’s main messenger to make it happen.

Korach Hierarchy Still Rules the Day

A formula for maximizing hierarchal growth using “hit callelut” or “interinclusion” by interincluding all the components of one framework into another one.

Chukat/Balak The Battle of the Eyes

A formula for correct seeing.

(a) See and keep quiet.

(b) Analyze what you see.

Pinchan/3-week mourning period Blasting Away the __________

The fogging blasting tool. Identify the foggings in your life and then co-create a reality to blast away life’s fogging.

Matot/Masai The Elevator Effect

A formula for elevating life’s key ordeals and challenges.

(a) ______ a challenge as being divinely sent and a lost part of myself.

(b) Reframe the challenge as being a G-d-sent opportunity to reconnect to this lost part.

Dvarin Inventory Power

The Inventory Tool.

(a) Make a list of the highlights of your previous week.

(b) Select from these the greatest hits.

Caetchanan Opening Up the Heart to G-d

A heart opening to G-d formula.

(a) Pretend that you are G-d and are responsible for perfecting the world.

(b) Emote and speak to G-d from the heart.

(d) Analyze extra-ordinary love.

Eikev Maximizing the Mitzvah

Maximizing the Mitzvah Formula.

(a) Choose a common Mitzvah.

(b) Perform the Mitzvah with all five soul levels which are: doing it; knowing it; doing it with meditative presence; doing it for the sake of Hashem; and doing it with maximum enthusiasm.

Reeh Divine Guidance 24/7 – The Ultimate Blessing

A few tools to access blessed divine guidance 24/7.

(a) Receiving divine dictation.

(b) _________

Shofpim Chase After the Truth

A truth-gauging formula.

(a) Does it stand the test of time?

(b) Can it be recognized in an atmosphere of defeat?

(d) Are you driven to pursue it?

Ki Taitzei The Principle of Pre-emptive Initiating

The pre-emptive initiating strategies:

(a) Initiate good energy to draw down good divine providence.

(b) Pre-empt the evil inclination.

Ki Tavo Save the Last for First

A few _______ “Raevoning” tools.

(a) Beyond limits, yearning and vision.

(b) ________ my “in-the-zone” state.

Nitzavim/Vayelech You’re Already Very Close

A strategy to bring out your inner super Jew.

(a) Make a list of all your life’s values.

(b) Yearn to improve each one.

Rosh Hashonah The Rosh Hashanah Factor

Rosh Hashonah tools and strategies.

(a) Rediscovering yourself.

(b) Partnerize with G-d’s New Year creation plan.

(d) _______

(e) Nulification of all negative decrees.

(f) Spiritual genetic engineering.

Haavinu/Yom Kippur The Essential Point of Chuvah and YomKippure

Tools for Chuvah and Yom Kippur.

(a) Chuvah. Being true to myself.

(b) Confession.

(d) The signing and sealing this point.

Sukkot Joy For The Straight Hearted

A few tools to get happiness.

(a) While in a constricted state.

(1) Wait it out.

(2) M3P. Be mechanical, minimalistic and meditative.

(3) Dayeinu. Be satisfied with everything.

(4) Bitachon. Trust that Hashem always comes through for you.

(b) While in an expansive state.

(1) Bina cap. Contemplation, music, freedom, truth, soul and above nature.

(2) Be grateful for everything.

(3) Torah study.

(4) Doing Mitzvahs.

The next 12 Parshas are the first twelve Parshas of the following Hebrew year, 5767. (That represents the English year of 2006/2007.)

Bereshit Emulating Creation

The “Emulating Creation” recipe.

(a) Keep going deeper to clarify your ultimate, deepest will of motivation.

(b) In a detached state of equanimity/hyper-focus on manifesting the object of your desire.

Noach Rectifying Humanity

Some “Rectifying Humanity” recipes.

(a) The detached Ohr Ganuving recipe.

(b) The saba’s naaseh vnishmah recipe.

(d) The paradise now plug-in recipe.

Lech Lecha Me Against the World

A recipe identifying and actualizing my inner Abraham and applying this power to overcome all the opposition in the world to me fulfilling my life’s calling.

Dayeira Ordeals

A recipe for surviving and thriving with the challenges and ordeals of my life.

Chayei Sarah Matchmaking

A recipe for surviving and thriving with all the difficulties involved in matchmaking.

Toldot Channeling Wealth

Recipes for channeling wealth.

(a) See wealth as a means.

(b) See wealth as belonging to G-d.

(d) Be aware of wealth pitfalls.

(e) Be appreciative.

(f) Be reproductive.

Vayeitzei Coping With Deception

A recipe for maintaining my Temimut (holy simplicity) in the face of a world of deception.

Vayishlach Parenting

A recipe for surviving in the face of all of the difficulties involved in raising children.

Vayeisheiv/Hanukah (Part 1) Hod Enabling

A recipe for internalizing and actualizing my Yehudah personality.

Mikeitz/Hanukah (Part 2) Hod Enabling

Recipe for enabling and seeing the hidden inside of all that is revealed.

Vayigash Unifying the Primal Schism

A recipe for unifying and expressing my Josef personality together with my Yehudah personality.

Vayechi Staying Alive

Many approaches for magnifying life in the face of death.

TOOLS OF THE PARSHA TOOLS ESSAYS  [according to the order of the essays]

1. ANSWERS FROM THE SOUL             ask the neshama (soul) to resonate and get hidden answers.

2. GOOD POINT BASED TRANSFORMATION               Hyper-focus on a negative person’s good traits and, thereby, transform and elevate them

3. STRONG TRAIT BENEVOLENCE   Enpower your selfless acts of doing benevolence to others by plugging into your strongest traits

4. PROJECTED GIVING                Contemplate the power of giving and project into the upcoming day

5. CONSTANT HASHEM   CONNECTION Constantly ask yourself if every act and word and thought is connecting you with Hashem

6. REFRAME EVERYTHING AS A MITZVAH                                              “Bar Mitzvah-ize” any desired daily activity by reframing it as a mitzvah.

7. THE WEEK'S HIGHLIGHTS; G-D'S GUIDANCE
Answer your questions and dilemmas by listing the highlights of your week and then analyzing them as being G-d’s answers.

8. CONSTRICTED CONSCIOUSNESS TRANSCENDENCE                                A few tools enabling us to transcend while in a constricted state of mind.

9. 'ALL OF ME' COMMUNICATION          All-encompassing Communication------- maximal utilization of your talents and your creativity and all the rest of the powers of your psyche when you express yourself.

10. PROJECTING MY FUTURE                                           Seeing that which is hidden in our own future by creating a “presume.”

11.  PRIMAL SCREAM THERAPY       screaming away those dead-end areas of your life

12.  SEEING LIFE'S PAINFULNESS AS BEING FOR THE BEST                         recall the painful experiences of your life and see them as being the best possible things for you

13. HELPLESSNESS TURNED OVER TO HASHEM screaming emotional crescendo when realizing you can’t take it any more and then throw your burdens to Hashem.

14. YEARNING FOR HIGHER EMUNAH Emuna is blocked in your thoughts and in your heart and in your lower soul, then yearn to break through in all areas.

15. REDEEMING MYSELF FROM EXILE A 3-step redemption formula.

(a) Primal wordless screams

(b) A humble acknowledging that it’s all from Hashem

CHANUKAH'S LIGHT INTO DARKNESS MEDITATIONS

*******These meditations are designed to harness the unique power of bringing light into darkness--that is available to us in many ways on Chanukah--to draw from, into the rest of the year

1. THE HOLIDAY'S MYSTICAL ILLUMINATIONS

A. WHAT YOU DON'T SEE IS WHAT YOU GET

[unlike the Greek contribution to civilization which stresses the glory of human accomplishment, which can be measured and seen, Yisrael's gift to the world is to glorify what cannot be measured and seen]

the meditation;

Scan the highlights of your day, week or life. Repeat (in a mantra fashion)over and over, the following statement, "The hidden aspect of this is _____". Allow answers to come to you until you open up the dimension of hidden glory as much as possible

B. OHR GANUZ --THE HIDDEN LIGHT

[the first 36 hours after Adam was created, G-d shined the hidden light for him to be able to see from one end of the world, of history and of his life--- to the other. This light is available to us on Chanukah simply by staring at the candles with the proper intention]

While looking at the candle[s],squint your eyes and focus on the lines that radiate out. In your mind's eye, extend those lines endlessly from one end of the universe to the other. While you visually extend the lines, also conceptually extend the lines, and see the entire span of your life and all the lessons that you can derive, as well as the span of history and it's lessons...

C. 'AIN BRAIRA' ---THE POWER OF 'NO CHOICE'

[ one Jewish family realized that they had 'no choice' but to wage war against the entire Greek empire-----otherwise, their spiritual heritage would have been devastated. This absolute clarity that they possessed ultimately, with Hashem's help, enabled them to miraculously be victorious]

Identify one challenge in your life, that you have no choice other than to somehow miraculously succeed, despite imppossible odds working against you. Project with absolute clarity, how, with Hashem's help, you overcome and succeed. Continue in this way with other such challenges

D. THE 'PARATROOPER' PRINCIPLE

[ the esoteric reason why we light the Chanukah candles when darkness sets in, can be explained with the analogy of a paratrooper who parachutes behind enemy lines in order to rescue his comrades in arms who are presently prisoner's of war. Similarly the 'Shechina'--the Divine Prescence--plunges Herself into the darkness of night in order to rescue with Her divine Light, those Holy Souls and Holy Sparks that are entrapped in their G-dless environment]

Focus on areas of life, past, present or future, that are presently sunk in darkness, [ie...confusion, stuckness, imposssible challenges...etc..], whether it be your own darkness or that of others. Fill yourself up with the light of the Shechinah---ie...Feel yourself surrounded and filled up with G-d's loving, caring and nurturing Light. Now begin to shine that Light onto the people and redeemable parts of yourself that are trapped in the darkness until you begin to sense that they are liberating and elevating

2. ILLUMINATIONS OF THE 'TIME' DIMENSION

A. MY YEAR'S 'ULTRASOUND' CHECKUP CHECKUP

[ on Rosh hashonah, we were 'impregnated'. We were Divinely granted a personal path or mission to carry out during the year. Just as the foetus in the womb is concealed until birth, so too with our year's mission---it is partially hidden until the time comes for it to be born (at the end of the Pesach Holiday). However, we do have the ability to peek. Just as a pregnancy cycle reaches a stage, at about a third of the way through, where it is evident to all onlookers that a pregnancy does indeed exist---so too does our year's 'pregnancy' mission reach this stage during Chanukah. In addition to that, we also have the abiltiy to to know the gender and a few other normally hidden aspects of the foetus nowadays, with an ultrsound checkup--------if we look carefully enough on Chanukah, we can access this extra insight about our lives also]

Conduct a dialogue between the foetus inside of yourself and the mother inside of yoursef. let the mother lovingly urge the foetus to express how he or she is doing, what he or she is all about and he or she can be maximally actualized and self expressed. The foetus represents your evolving year's mission unveiling and manifesting itself. Keep the dialogue going so that you can reveal as much as you can-----and all in an environment that is as loving and safe as it possibly can be

B. THE POWER OF THE DARKNESS CONTRAST

[ Chanukah takes place at the darkest time of the year. The length of the night compared to that of the day, reaches it's peak extremity. We are taught by the Kabbalistic masters , that Hashem set up the creation in order to allow a reality whereby G-diness could and would be revealed in the most G-dless environments. This is the purpose of Creation. This dynamic is only possible when there co-exists a contrast---- a contrast between peak darkness and minimal Divine Light that ultimately overtakes the darkness completely]

Scan your life's history, as little or as much of it as you like. Identify those areas of your life which were the darkest of all. See that your life, while inside of the darkness, was far away from

G-d. In as many ways as you can, draw down G-dliness into this darkness-----for example---see the redeeming features, and how it is/was all for the best and how it all somehow worked out for you and will continue to do so. Do this whole process for your present and future as well.

C. THE LAST HOLIDAY OF HISTORY

[ our Sages determined that the last holiday of our Holiday cycle to be instituted, should be Chanukah. So too, in the calendar year, Chanukah is the last Holiday before a very long stretch of the darkest and coldest winter months. So too historically, the Chanukah story took place right before we entered into the longest of all of our exiles---bereft of our Holy Temple, and for the most part, of our Holy Land. Somehow those tiny candlelights of Chanukah have the power to stand the test of time and sustaion us throughout the longest , coldest and darkest of time periods]

Etch into your mind or soul, a 'space', a sanctuary, a knowing----that will always exist and be available for you upon request. It consists of the 'Divine Prescence', of the light that you can tap in to no matter how far away you are in terms of time space and soul. This light, that is etched into your soul, will serve as a source of safety, sweetening, comfort, rescue and elevation. Project a few situations where this light will come through for you in the future, exactly in the way that you will need

3. ILLUMINATIONS OF THE PERSONAL DIMENSION

[some of the most famous people in History, from Napoleon to Mark Twain to the Dali Lama----have remarked in awe and in wonder---about how the Jewish people have been able to survive throughout all of history despite being subject to the greatest obstacles known to mankind. The 'Light into Darkness Principle' that Chanukah opens up for us, provides us with not only the keys to our near impossible historical survival as a nation, but also illuminates our personal lives with the knowledge of how to bring light into all of the many forms of darkness that we experence daily]

Focus on how each one of the following areas of our lives involve a process of overcoming a certain aspect of darkness [such as uncertainty, fear, pain...etc..] Draw on all of the previous techniques that we've brought in these meditations, as well as any other 'illuminations' that come to mind....Overcome and light up any and all forms of darkness that exist in the following self-actualizing processes that you

are undergoing in your life;

a. coping with challenges

b. growth

c. getting clarity

d. relationships

e. healing

f. Emunah [Faith]

g. self actualization

h. transcendence into higher states of being

A KOTEL MEDITATION

The Kotel [the Western Wall] is the Bridge.It bridges Heaven and Earth into one